I've got considerable experience of teaching, so I should know better than most people that the first steps up the mountain tend to be the hardest. Still, when you're the one who's doing the travelling, it's hard not to get despondent. Or maybe the reason why I'm feeling overwhelmed is because my teaching experience also tells me that when you reach the top of the mountain, you usually find that there's another, even taller mountain right in front of you.
There are times when I think that pursuing my interests is silly, that I should just 'grow up', be sensible and push aside all my 'unrealistic' dreams and ambitions. There are times when I allow the rational voice inside my head to dominate: 'You don't have a background in chemistry'; 'You've got no connections with France/Grasse/the perfume industry etc.'; 'You're setting yourself up to compete against people much younger than you who are actually attending perfumery schools and obtaining qualifications'; 'You're devoting too much precious time to what should only be a casual hobby'; 'You know you've got better things to do, other ambitions to fulfil'.
Time to focus on the positives. This week, I hope to visit the Haute Parfumerie at Harrod's for the first time, which should be fascinating, and I'm also hoping that a stock of some new perfume supplies will arrive in the post before too long.
Onward and upward...